Meatless May...Last Day

Well, here I am.  May 31.  The last day of Meatless May.  I'll admit it--I'm sort of sad.  I've really enjoyed pushing myself to create new meals and finding ways to maneuver around the meat based meals at family gatherings and most restaurants.  So at the end of the month what pros and cons have I found?

Pros
-I hardly ever feel guilty after I eat.  I load most of my meals with green vegetables--what's to feel guilty about?  (There were a handful of unhealthy meals thrown in but hey--life isn't perfect.)
-More energy.  I'm usually sluggish most of the time; I often feel just plain exhausted.  But this month that hasn't been the case.  I've even had the energy to go to the gym almost everyday this month.
-Every dish is so colorful!  It feel fantastic to sit down with a plate bursting with color in front of me versus a plate of khaki.

Cons
-Eating a somewhat healthy meal at a restaurant is almost impossible.  If you're going with other people and it's not somewhere that is known for having vegetarian friendly recipes then you better throw healthy options out the window.  Most places have veggie burgers but with the fries on the side, you really aren't helping yourself.  I went out to eat with my parents one day and my choices were...well...a side salad.  I opted to skip that since I wanted to actually eat something of substance and chose a quesadilla without the chicken.  First of all, they still charged me full price.  Secondly, it had some the greasiest mushrooms I have ever come across.  Thirdly, not healthy considering the amount of cheese and grease that was stuffed inside.     
-Gas.  Enough sad.

I will not continue being a vegetarian but I have decided that I won't be putting meat on my grocery list.  I'll stick to vegetarian meals when cooking and then when I'm with others and there isn't a good veggie option available I'll eat meat.

Hear are some final pictures...and these are actually ended up being my favorite from the week:                   

                           
Stuffed red peppers. (Red peppers stuffed with brown rice, kidney beans, and spinach)

Stuffed Mushrooms
See the full recipe at my brand new food blog :A La Avocado

Delicious tofu tip:  Soak tofu overnight in your favorite dressing and hot sauce and then throw them in your salad the next day. Amazing.

Squash Noodles.  (Watch for the recipe to appear on A La Avocado)

Avocado, sun dried tomatoes, alfalfa sprouts, jalapeno, Parmesan, and sweet chilli sauce on a spinach wrap.   Great lunch.

Regrets

 I woke up this morning with a message from a friend of mine concerning life regrets.  She listed off regrets that she has about things that she did...and things she didn't do.

I remember filling out one of those silly questionnaires that would get passed around on facebook in college and answering a questions about regrets.  You know the questionnaires I'm talking about ---the ones with questions like:  What is your dream vacation? (Hogwarts).  What is sitting immediately to the right of you? (The cat).  What did you eat for breakfast? (Coffee). People would fill out those things like they were popping M&Ms in their mouth. 

I remember a question that went something along the lines of this:


"Do you have regrets?"  Arrogantly I answered with some remark about how life should be lived without regrets.  Each moment contains something that you can learn from so therefore you should never regret a single moment of your life.

I'm pretty sure that the answer seemed reasonable at the time.  In fact I'm pretty sure that at that moment in time--my life was close to perfect.  And I still believe that my answer is partly correct.  You can learn from every moment in your life--but why should that mean you can't regret it?  Why can't you vow to cut out your very heart in hopes to go back and do something differently?

You see the thing is...if you don't have regrets, how can you ever learn from them?
Take a moment and list out your three biggest regrets.  I guarantee you that you'll figure something out about yourself.

Mine?
1.  Ruining what was a wonderful and honest friendship.  I'll never stop regretting that he isn't there anymore.
2.  Quitting theatre. I loved being onstage and I let the world tell me to give up.  So I did.
3.   Not believing in myself and settling in life.
 

Meatless May...Day 19

Over halfway done with Meatless May! (and two weeks till I leave for Hong Kong!)  

So far it really hasn't been that bad.  The first week and a half I really missed meat and stressed about every meal--"What in the world am I going to eat?"  "I am soooo hungry."  "I want Chic-fil-a RIGHT NOW."  But I've overcome the hump it seems and I'm feeling pretty awesome--lots of energy, none of that heavy feeling after eating.  I have very rarely eaten rice or pasta and I've worked hard to make every meal mostly vegetables.  An odd observation that I've made is that I have zero cravings for anything.  The notion of eating to live has taken place over my old one of living to eat I suppose and therefore--no real cravings.  (Except that I'm currently watching people on TV eat take-out Chinese food and the allure of steamed dumplings is hard to ignore)

Here are some more pictures from experiment:

Brown rice with broccoli and asparagus (asparagus is great on anything...especially if you drizzle olive oil on it and roast it)





I tried a veggie burger at Remington Grill and didn't care for it.  It was thin and spongy.  Not to knock on Remington Grill--I love everything else I've ever had there and was surprised they even offered a veggie burger so I'm now holding it against them.  I also tried a veggie burger at Carolina Ale House and it was AH-mazing.

This one is pretty original in my opinion---mashed sweet potatoes, black beans, and guacamole quesadilla (Although I guess it's not technically a quesadilla considering there wasn't any cheese).  Experimenting with tortillas is always fun and this turned out well.

I bought a huge container of diced sweet potatoes and it's been fun figuring out what to do with them other than make a casserole.  One night I threw them in the oven and roasted them after sprinkled oregano and olive oil on them and ate then with a scrambled egg---sooooo good. 

Tonight I'm gearing up for a veggie stuffed red pepper--let's see what happens!

The Trapped Turtle

I watched this turtle the other day.  It was beautiful.  Shocking yellow stripes that dazzle in the light.  People walked by and stared through the glass at him oooing and ahhhing and commenting on how wonderful it must be for him to live there, in that beautiful aquarium.  Safe, well fed, nothing at all to worry about.

But he looked sad.  I watched as he swam to the edge of the glass towards me.  He followed my finger as I waved it back and forth against his cage.  I wondered if he had some insane hope that my finger would magically create a hole that would allow him to escape.  To escape the entrapment of a life filled with longing to be something more.  A life where he doesn't wake up and face another day of swimming back and forth in the same pattern.  A life of adventure. 

And why shouldn't he be free?  Free to roam the waters of the earth--investigating every stone and every crevice he can find.  Riding the waves and currents--feeling the adrenaline pulsing through his veins.  He should be given the chance to be who he was meant to be. 

Putting away the picture I took of him, I clock back in and stare at my cubicle walls. 

Meatless May...Day 9

I tried several new recipes this past week--most of them were made up on the fly and I'm pretty proud of that fact.  This past weekend was my biggest challenge in my meatless endeavor: Hot Dog weekend.

I'm fully aware that hot dogs are gross in theory but let us be honest here; hot dogs are amazing.  They are cheap, easy, and nostalgic; everyone remembers smothering a hot dog with ketchup during a pool party on a hot summer's day as a kid.  As I've gotten older, they've only gotten better.  Since the days of holding a hot dog in my wet, chlorine smelling hands at the ripe age of nine I've learned that the hot dog is a canvas for any foodie.  Sauerkraut, mustard, jalapenos, cheese, relish, mayonnaise, hot sauce, chili, onions, slaw, tomato slices, pickles, peppers,  and let's not forget ketchup. 

Needless to say, it took all my energy to turn down hot dogs not once---but twice--this weekend.  I attended two hot dog parties this weekend and munched on potato chips and baked beans (sadly picking out the delicious bacon).  But I did say no and that is pretty fantastic.  (I also attended a taco party and ate a lettuce and tomato taco. It was a very hungry weekend).

To make peace with my angry, hot dog deprived taste buds, I set out to try several new things this week.

I call this chick pea salad.  Super easy.  Lay out your asparagus on a baking sheet and lightly coat them in olive oil and broil them on low until they look done.  Add the grape tomatoes to the baking sheet during the last two minutes.  Then you throw the asparagus and tomatoes in a bowl with chick peas and artichoke hearts.  Add a little olive oil dressing and you have chick pea salad!

Pizza made by my friend Heather...a smorgasbord of veggies topped with cheese.  I've never seen avocado on a pizza before--great addition!

I have no idea what this is.  I just threw some red peppers in olive oil and cooked them for a few minutes before adding mushrooms, broccoli, diced tomatoes, and cheese.  It was good but sadly not very filling.  Perhaps on round two I'll leave out the cheese and add rice.

Jimmy Johns!!  Veggie Sandwich on wheat--tomatoes, cucumbers, avocado spread, provolone, peppers, and lettuce

This was my most disappointing meatless meal.  Just a simple sushi roll minus the fish.  It's just ain't sushi without fish people.

The circle

Am I the only one who sees the circle?  The ever continuing cycle that seems impossible to break.  Wake up everyday and do the exact same thing you did before.  A never ending circle of nothingness that traps you.  I sit in the middle and watch each piece go in the slow, predictable pattern.  Sure every once in a while there is a small blip--a trip, a dinner, a moment of happiness but before you know it the circle has sucked you back in.  Stuck in the middle watching and waiting for something to happen; something to make it worth it----a reason to open my eyes. 

Meatless May...Day 3

I'm only three days in but the biggest change so far is the fact that I have to fix every meal.  I usually eat frozen meals for lunch and either a turkey sandwich or some concoction with grocery store chicken each night.  I'm needing to force myself to prepare lunch for work the night before because I'm already scrambling around in order to make it there as it is.

That small complaint aside I feel great.  I'm pretty sure I'm eating more food but I feel better, more energetic.  I've consumed more vegetables in the past three days than I usually do in a month.

I made my first meat free sandwich (besides grilled cheese...but hey I put bacon on a grilled cheese if I can (-: )

Avocado, cabbage, and alfalfa sprouts on wheat.  It was fantastic.  And so far my favorite veggie meal I've made.  Crunchy and creamy and just plain delicious. 









I tried my hand at veggie fried brown rice but I didn't think it was all that great--Ashley and my aunt liked it but I thought it was missing something.  I'll have to try it out again.  I did make a macho Quesadilla though stuffed with veggies. 

Black beans, diced tomatoes, alfalfa sprouts, avocado, Frank's sweet and spicy sauce, on a spinach wrap.  This thing was monstrous.  In retrospect I should have patted the black beans and diced tomatoes with a paper towel first---but it was still awesome.   





And let's not forget the good stand by:

Tonight's meal?  Chex cereal with almond milk followed by wine---cause I eat like a king.

Meatless May...a vegetarian adventure

I've decided to try out being a vegetarian for the month of May.  It's no animal rights thing, I'm a firm believer in the food chain...the circle of life.

So now I'm playing the part of the antelope--I just pray the lion in my life, Skittles (my cousin's cat that I've temporarily adopted), won't pounce and eat me.  ps...I am aware antelope is misspelled in the picture.

I'm mainly doing this because I want to see if I can do it without breaking down at 2 in the morning and driving to Cook Out to order a BBQ sandwich and a corn dog...and I'm trying to maintain a healthier lifestyle.  

There are several challenges with this commitment.  I don't want to do this and end up eating pasta every night.  I need to push myself to really explore all the vegetarian options out there.  Which I can see becoming pretty costly.  Sadly, eating healthy is not cheap.  Veggies and fruit can rack up the grocery bill if you aren't careful...pasta and sauce is way cheaper.  So I intend to find a way to do this on my normal grocery budget without eating bowls and bowls of pasta. 

So there you have it.  My Meatless May--stay tuned for recipes, pictures, and comments!

Cuteness!

Trapped

It's that itchy, claustrophobic feeling.  The one when you've realize that you are trying desperately to claw yourself out of the room but aren't getting anywhere.

The room is dark, damp, and smells like decay.  When you rub your hands along the walls the splinters stab your fingertips.  Eventually you don't even notice the roaches that run across your feet or the spiders that fall in your hair.  There are no windows, the only light comes from the door.

The door stands there tall and looming.  A glass door.  It's smooth to the touch and feels cool on the tip of your nose when you lean into it.  I can see my life on the other side--I see myself smiling, laughing, and truly happy.  I can see goals, aspirations, friends, and family.  The other side of the door is bright and colorful--my knuckles are stained red from knocking.  I need the key and I know that it has to be somewhere in this room hidden away.

I may spend hours searching each day but in the end I end up staring through the door--watching and dreaming--until I've exhausted myself and I collapse on the floor.  And just lay there and wait, possibly for something that will never come.

Absentmindedly flicking the spider off my forehead I shut my eyes with the thought that tomorrow I'll finally pull up the plank that my key is hiding under.